I’m FINE, i think
for the first time in many months i can tell i’m fine, kind of. well, this year i learned that “friendship” is not that simple to qualify a relationship between two persons. if you go back to last year, you’ll see that i had more friends and i was happier but it doesn’t matter, i was living a lie. it’s better now. i know who are my friends now, it’s cool. kind of. i’ll lie to you if i said that everything is fine for me no, of course not, the half of my high school friends are just some ass kissers with me and i know it. but it’s cool. the year will be over in a few weeks and this as been the best year of my life, i met wonderful people, my heros Darren and Chris, and so many others…
now what i’m worried about is my ENTIRE FUTURE. i don’t know what to do, i want to quit everything at this point. i just want a break. i want to travel, see the world (aka USA :3), i want to live my dreams. can’t i have this ? c’mon, i mean, i’ll never be the famous singer i wanted to be when i was little, i’ll never be famous at all and i can’t live of my passions. for example, i’m in high school now which is qualify in applied arts, it means that i have to apply in art school for next year, but my grades aren’t good enough. i know it. everyone knows it. i think my friends think i’m screwed for next year……. “what a great friendship” you’ll tell me, erh. but you know, it’s fine. everything’s gonna be. just. fine.
you know why ?
because i earned it.